Jacktr, 32

well i started watching horror when i was around 3 years old. i don't know why horror films attract my attention so much something about them draws me in. i joined to find out more about myself, cause for some reason my friends have been telling me some things i do, but i don't remember doing them. its mostly stuff about anger which is kinda strange. i don't remember ever letting someone make mad. i always seem to never let out anger, but its like i was possessed and thats why i don't remember doing weird things. i even strangely write about horror in a journal, i found out when i found the journal hidden in my room. i remember some things from the past which seem strange, like walking faster than usual. i even seem to go to sleep and wake up and somethings always different, people tell me i sleepwalk. i want to find out if i may be possessed or if something from my past that i don't remember has come to remind me about something. i'm more of a shy person, but if ya start talking about a horror film i recognize, or something i might start to talk a little more. sorry for not staying on one subject at a time but somehow i can't control it. i also had a dream recently which was kinda a nightmare, it was about a creature coming after me. after i was cornered something happened to me, its like i just lost it and killed the evil creature even though it was a new kinda fear i was gonna have. its like the new fear came and something inside me scared it away. my worst fear is if someone i like gets hurt, thats my worst fear. my worst fear used to be ghostface from the movie "Scream", but then in a dream a few years ago i became its fear. i feel like something is watching over me, at first i thought it was an angel but then i realized, an angel wouldn't come in my dream and make me scare a creature which was about to become my fear.